So weird. Even if there's still quite the difference between taking over an entire kingdom and a business - no matter how big the Ushiromiya Group had gotten at that point - it still reads so weirdly similar. An aunt too, of all things. A critical one, on top of it. Commenting on Wu's personality and his looks, disapproving of his parents.
It makes it so easy for her to imagine what he must have endured - because she did too.
She's not dismissing what he says after it, but she can't help but zoom in on the earlier part. Not when it feels like it's hitting her so hard. ]
You're so amazing, Wu.
Even though you went through all that, you're still the way you are. You're still so cheery, and unashamed of yourself, not to mention helping out others and chasing your passions..
Honestly, I think it makes me look kind of bad next to you.
Ange!!!! No, no, no I didn't mean to make you feel bad!!!
Honestly??? Back home I tried really hard not to be myself, everything I was wasn't okay! But I found that kind of freedom here. And I was always really bad at it....
[ At not being himself. He doesn't really know what to say to make her not think worse about herself, so he just... tries ]
There's no reason that you have to help people to be a good person. I guess if we're being really honest with each other sometimes I don't know if I'm really worthwhile if I'm not helping people? And the Raccoon Room is kind of selfish, even if I do want other people to have a good time there, it's also for me.
I don't know, it's really hard to figure out what you want to do. It's hard to feel okay about myself, too. I guess that being cheery is sort of how I deal with all of it.
[ And, there's a piece of him that's scared that if he isn't cheerful all the time, there's no reason to be around him. He's worthwhile when he's happy, when he's bringing a positive energy to things. He doesn't really see why anyone would want to deal with him if he wasn't upbet. ]
I think it's okay if you don't know what to do, and whenever you find what you do want to do, you're going to be amazing at it. But even if you don't find one thing, you're going to try stuff out and you're going to be a great friend and a great girlfriend to Ruby! All of those things are worthwhile in and of themselves.
It seems like we both had not so great experiences growing up, so I really get it. I get what it's like to be told that you're not okay, that you're not good enough, and it's not true! I don't know who your aunt was, but mine was a really awful person, and once she was..... dead.... then I could really see how she'd been treating me. You know one way to be a good person? Don't act like our aunts did. Just by not doing that, we're doing something good in the world. And I don't think you act like that at all. You don't tell people what to do or how to be.
...that was all a lot. This stuff is really hard. If you ever want to talk, not over text, about this stuff, you know where to find me.
[ There's a lot there. A lot to think about. And as always, whenever Ange finds herself thinking about Eva, she also finds herself growing rapidly more antsy. Her hands fidget for something to do with all the nervous energy, and she ends up biting the nail of her thumb as she glances at the message.
Wu is such a kind idiot. He must have been so busy these past few days, and yet here he is, going out of his way to say this stuff to her. To write it all down for her. ]
I think we should talk about this in person. [ It's her effort to do something in return for all the kindness and effort he's showing her here. After all, there's a reason Ange never talks about this stuff with anyone. Out of all of the stuff that happened to her, somehow it's the deep dive into her relationship with her aunt that gets her the most antsy.
Especially while talking about it in person. But Wu understands. And he's.. ] I trust you with it.
But some other time. You first have your big opening to focus on, you know? I'm not going to take time away from someone who's super busy with that. Sometime when it's been open for a while and you've found your swing with it, we should get together and talk about all this.
[ At first, Wu feels a little let down, shut down, but after a moment's reflection, he gets it. It is hard to talk about, it's hard to process all of this over text. He's still new to texting as a medium, and it's hard to get everything across the way he wants to.
And it's kind of her to offer to wait until he's ready. ]
Thank you, Ange. I'd like that. We can talk about it, in a little while. After your party and the opening, when we can slow down a little.
You're not taking anything away from me, though! I'm more than happy to talk with you. Honestly? It feels nice that you get it. Not everyone has a terrible auntie!
[ Of course neither of them know the curse of saying 'when we can slow down a little' in a place like Trench, that immediately proceeds to make the next month awful.
But without knowing that, Ange kind of feels a weird mixture of emotions. Looking forward to it a little, since like he says, it's rare to find people who really get it. But at the same time feeling oddly nervous.
But she tries to push the latter feeling down as she texts back. ]
It's a date.
Good luck with everything, Wu. I'm sure the opening will be a success, considering the amount of passion you're putting into it.
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So weird. Even if there's still quite the difference between taking over an entire kingdom and a business - no matter how big the Ushiromiya Group had gotten at that point - it still reads so weirdly similar. An aunt too, of all things. A critical one, on top of it. Commenting on Wu's personality and his looks, disapproving of his parents.
It makes it so easy for her to imagine what he must have endured - because she did too.
She's not dismissing what he says after it, but she can't help but zoom in on the earlier part. Not when it feels like it's hitting her so hard. ]
You're so amazing, Wu.
Even though you went through all that, you're still the way you are. You're still so cheery, and unashamed of yourself, not to mention helping out others and chasing your passions..
Honestly, I think it makes me look kind of bad next to you.
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Honestly??? Back home I tried really hard not to be myself, everything I was wasn't okay! But I found that kind of freedom here. And I was always really bad at it....
[ At not being himself. He doesn't really know what to say to make her not think worse about herself, so he just... tries ]
There's no reason that you have to help people to be a good person. I guess if we're being really honest with each other sometimes I don't know if I'm really worthwhile if I'm not helping people? And the Raccoon Room is kind of selfish, even if I do want other people to have a good time there, it's also for me.
I don't know, it's really hard to figure out what you want to do. It's hard to feel okay about myself, too. I guess that being cheery is sort of how I deal with all of it.
[ And, there's a piece of him that's scared that if he isn't cheerful all the time, there's no reason to be around him. He's worthwhile when he's happy, when he's bringing a positive energy to things. He doesn't really see why anyone would want to deal with him if he wasn't upbet. ]
I think it's okay if you don't know what to do, and whenever you find what you do want to do, you're going to be amazing at it. But even if you don't find one thing, you're going to try stuff out and you're going to be a great friend and a great girlfriend to Ruby! All of those things are worthwhile in and of themselves.
It seems like we both had not so great experiences growing up, so I really get it. I get what it's like to be told that you're not okay, that you're not good enough, and it's not true! I don't know who your aunt was, but mine was a really awful person, and once she was..... dead.... then I could really see how she'd been treating me. You know one way to be a good person? Don't act like our aunts did. Just by not doing that, we're doing something good in the world. And I don't think you act like that at all. You don't tell people what to do or how to be.
...that was all a lot. This stuff is really hard. If you ever want to talk, not over text, about this stuff, you know where to find me.
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[ There's a lot there. A lot to think about. And as always, whenever Ange finds herself thinking about Eva, she also finds herself growing rapidly more antsy. Her hands fidget for something to do with all the nervous energy, and she ends up biting the nail of her thumb as she glances at the message.
Wu is such a kind idiot. He must have been so busy these past few days, and yet here he is, going out of his way to say this stuff to her. To write it all down for her. ]
I think we should talk about this in person. [ It's her effort to do something in return for all the kindness and effort he's showing her here. After all, there's a reason Ange never talks about this stuff with anyone. Out of all of the stuff that happened to her, somehow it's the deep dive into her relationship with her aunt that gets her the most antsy.
Especially while talking about it in person. But Wu understands. And he's.. ] I trust you with it.
But some other time. You first have your big opening to focus on, you know? I'm not going to take time away from someone who's super busy with that. Sometime when it's been open for a while and you've found your swing with it, we should get together and talk about all this.
If you're okay with that.
I think I'd like to try.
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And it's kind of her to offer to wait until he's ready. ]
Thank you, Ange. I'd like that. We can talk about it, in a little while. After your party and the opening, when we can slow down a little.
You're not taking anything away from me, though! I'm more than happy to talk with you. Honestly? It feels nice that you get it. Not everyone has a terrible auntie!
It's a date!
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But without knowing that, Ange kind of feels a weird mixture of emotions. Looking forward to it a little, since like he says, it's rare to find people who really get it. But at the same time feeling oddly nervous.
But she tries to push the latter feeling down as she texts back. ]
It's a date.
Good luck with everything, Wu. I'm sure the opening will be a success, considering the amount of passion you're putting into it.